I wish when I kissed you goodbye, I knew it was a goodbye forever. I never would’ve come up for air. I would’ve drowned in the taste of your mouth on mine, over and over again.
I still look for you in every book. In every lyric. In every line of poetry. In every episode of television. In each movie I watch for the hundredth time. I still look for you among a sea of strangers in a crowded room. In the emptiest of places. In every piece of artwork. I still look for you, even in my loneliest dreams.
the silent self mutilation of climbing into fresh bedsheets dusted with the scent of you and gripping tight, realizing all my nights are spent sleeping with a ghost.
My love for you is endless.
A labyrinth I work my way through,
with no desire for an exit.
It settles into my bones,
and I spend my days wandering,
exploring all the new and profound pieces of you.
Do you still think of me as you fall asleep?
Do you reach for me in the middle of the night
the way I still reach for you?
I’m drowning over and over,
and still praying the tide
will bring me back to you.
It’s down to the wire, a toothless thread of hope that I’ll still cling to. After all, what else do I have left to hold?
love, after all, is the most elaborate method of self harm.
But your intelligence
is what ignites a fuse inside me
Dutch: something or someone who elicits comfort, a sense of calmness, warmth, safety, joy, and happiness.
It wasn’t the first word that came to mind when I tried to explain the way I feel when I’m talking to you.
No, the first word I thought of was home.
You can be there when the sun shines
But at nightfall, you’re all mine
If I didn’t know better, I’d capture the stars for you
Illuminate every inch of mischief you keep buried
The whisky we drink warms our throats, coats our inhibitions
But I keep drinking, fuzzy thoughts of you keeping me company
Darling, you’ve got a lover waiting for you
Yet here you are —
If I didn’t know better, I’d say you wanted me, too.
Give me one night alone with you
I’d let it happen, let myself fall
If I didn’t know better.
But I do, I do.
But you’ve got me feeling again, opening up
My thoughts finally settling inside my noisy head
If I didn’t know better, I’d want this
I’ve been waiting for you, I’ve ached for you
And now you’re here, I want you to stay
If I didn’t know better, I’d ask you to.
I crossed a line, I want you to be mine.
In my arms, in my bed,
In my heart, in my head.
You’re captured me, all yours, all yours.
If I didn’t know better, I’d find a way.
I’m aching for you, darling.
Could you stay a little longer?
I want all of you.
The highs, the lows.
Emotionally and physically.
I want to worship your mind.
And relish in the feel of your skin against mine.
I saw poetry in your eyes and, right then and there, I knew I was under your spell.