I called out your name between whimpers and sighs, tears stinging my squeezed-shut eyes, as I clung to the nothingness that is now just your ghost.
My lips still tremble, my hips still thrash, my body still aches, for only you. Only you. Always you.
You’re my 4 am thoughts, alone in the silence of the night. You’re my 2 pm thoughts, a welcomed distraction in my work day when I’m aching to reach out and rest my hand on your thigh. You’re my 9 am thoughts, craving the warmth of you on all the cold lonely mornings. You’re my 8 pm thoughts, your head in my lap and my fingers through your hair. You’re my 11 pm thoughts, my fingertips aching for your skin to draw you impossibly closer.
My love for you is endless.
A labyrinth I work my way through,
with no desire for an exit.
It settles into my bones,
and I spend my days wandering,
exploring all the new and profound pieces of you.
Dutch: something or someone who elicits comfort, a sense of calmness, warmth, safety, joy, and happiness.
It wasn’t the first word that came to mind when I tried to explain the way I feel when I’m talking to you.
No, the first word I thought of was home.
stroke my thigh,
And I feel the lightning
shoot all the way
up into my soul
The taste of your name on my tongue
is an intoxicating drugs of its own
and it’s safe to say I’m addicted
to everything you say and do
I yearn for something I’ll never have again
For something I can never get back
You were my favorite kind of poison
An addiction I couldn’t resist
Where do the lines blur between reality and fantasy?
Somewhere among there is where we lie.
I whisper a wordless goodnight,
then pray to a god I don’t believe in
that I’ll meet you in my dreams tonight
Something about you feels familiar
Like a memory of a dream I once had
It’s all about the anticipation —
The build up
The want, the need, the desire
That keeps you flipping to the next page
You’re eager for more
Dying to dig a little deeper
To watch the relationship bloom
And see the fairytale unfold
But once the princess kisses the princess,
You put the book down
And start a new story
If I didn’t know better, I’d capture the stars for you
Illuminate every inch of mischief you keep buried
The whisky we drink warms our throats, coats our inhibitions
But I keep drinking, fuzzy thoughts of you keeping me company
Darling, you’ve got a lover waiting for you
Yet here you are —
If I didn’t know better, I’d say you wanted me, too.
Give me one night alone with you
I’d let it happen, let myself fall
If I didn’t know better.
But I do, I do.
But you’ve got me feeling again, opening up
My thoughts finally settling inside my noisy head
If I didn’t know better, I’d want this
I’ve been waiting for you, I’ve ached for you
And now you’re here, I want you to stay
If I didn’t know better, I’d ask you to.
I crossed a line, I want you to be mine.
In my arms, in my bed,
In my heart, in my head.
You’re captured me, all yours, all yours.
If I didn’t know better, I’d find a way.
I’m aching for you, darling.
Could you stay a little longer?