How To Love You Now

I broke our promise, broke your heart
And we’ve suffered, time and time again
I let it all fall apart
What a fool I was back then
What a fool I still am

But you loved me once,
You say you still do
Despite my many sorrys
Regardless of my mistakes

But you’re still gone
I’ve lost you

So here I am
And I’ll just wait
Hoping you’ll listen long enough
Stick around to hear me say

I would never let you down
If you’d let me show you how
I can truly love you now

You held my hand, would’ve died to keep me safe
That’s why it kills me now, knowing I’m the reason
For all this pain we both have to face

I don’t blame you for moving on,
I led you on and refused to let you in
Maybe now my chances are gone
We’ll never get back to how we’ve been

So here I am
And I’ll just wait
Hoping you’ll listen long enough
Stick around to hear me say

I would never let you down
If you’d let me show you how
I’ve learned how to love you now

The Letter I Actually Sent

True love isn’t something that happens often.

For some, they may never find it. For others, it comes more than once in a lifetime. You’ll know you have it when you’re with someone and they don’t just make you happy, because plenty of people can come along and make you happy, but they make you the best possible version of yourself. They’ll bring you up on your bad days, celebrate with you on your better days, give you strength and hope and courage and newfound wisdom as you grow together.

They’re not just someone you’re compatible with and enjoy being around. If you’re one of the lucky ones who found this true love, hold on to it. Fight like hell for it every day. Don’t ever let it slip away. Because you’ll never be the same once it’s gone.

I know this because I was one of those fools who let it slip between my fingertips… slowly watching it fade into the distance like the sunset collapsing slowly into the dark night sky.

And even if I’m not one of those few who can find true love like that again… you are. You’ve found another person in this world who makes you happy, who you miss when they’re gone as if they’re a part of you.

It’s no longer my presence you crave or my hand you wish to hold. It’s no longer my soft lips you wish you kiss goodnight before you drift off to sleep each night. It’s no longer my arms you need wrapped around you or my touch you desire.

But let me tell you this. True love usually comes only once, but you’re a lucky one. You have a future and you have happiness with another person who makes you feel complete.

And if that’s the case, what kind of person would I be to stand in your way of that?