What I Can’t Have

I hate wanting something I can never have

What hurts even worse
Is that you will never even know
you are everything I want

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Dedication Part II.

You showed me how to be who I am
Taught me it’s okay to be comfortable in my skin

You helped me find the strength and the words
Built up my courage to be myself

Stood by my side as the world crumbled
Always picked up the pieces

You showed me my potential for happiness
And helped me be brave enough to get there.

 

Stop Running

I caught a glimpse of the other side of that wall
That you fight so hard to keep standing

Then you pulled away,
An expert at goodbyes

And now I’m here,
You know I want you; it’s no secret.

God, I wish you would just let me stay. 

Another Stranger

I used to believe I was to blame. That I ruined what was blooming. But I’m not to blame at all. It was you who was afraid.

— And we weren’t blooming, we were burning.

Now, you’re just another stranger.

But tell me – how could a stranger force my heart to plummet completely into my stomach the moment I laid eyes on you again?

I Forgot to Say Thank You

I spent so much time fighting with you
So much time trying to support you
So much time next to you…
But I never said thank you

Thanks for tucking me in each night
Thanks for cuddling and rubbing my feet
Thanks for making me smile and laugh
Thanks for teaching me to be kind

Thanks for chasing away monsters
Thanks for soothing my tummy aches
Nurturing my wounds, mending my pains

Thanks for driving me to school
Thanks for being at every cheer competition
Thanks for always being by my side

Thanks for teaching me to be strong
And to always love

Thanks for supporting me, no matter what
Thanks for making it so easy to talk to you
And for always being so honest with me

Thanks for always being there
Thanks for loving me unconditionally

Thanks for being my best friend

Resentment Part III.

RESENTMENT: A FEELING OF BITTER INDIGNATION AT HAVING BEEN TREATED UNFAIRLY.

You let yourself get so high,
Giving yourself a greater distance to fall.
And you did.

You yanked us down with you,
When it came crashing down and caught flames.

Falling so fast, so hard.
I’ll never let myself get that far.
I’ll never get that far.

I’ll play it safe.
But I’m afraid.
What if I lose my way?
What if I break?

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