You know it wasn’t real,
But the dream just felt so good.
So vivid and warm as it stitched itself inside your mind.
And when you woke up
Those positive feelings lingered,
Embracing you in warmth as your lips curled upward, softly.
Even though you know the dream will never come true again.
I caught a glimpse of the other side of that wall
That you fight so hard to keep standing
Then you pulled away,
An expert at goodbyes
And now I’m here,
You know I want you; it’s no secret.
God, I wish you would just let me stay.
I don’t know which is worse
Never knowing what it would be like
Or only having a little taste and craving more
The apples on the lower branch never taste as sweet.
And whether you like it or not,
I’m ready to climb.
I used to believe I was to blame. That I ruined what was blooming. But I’m not to blame at all. It was you who was afraid.
— And we weren’t blooming, we were burning.
Now, you’re just another stranger.
But tell me – how could a stranger force my heart to plummet completely into my stomach the moment I laid eyes on you again?
I spent so much time fighting with you
So much time trying to support you
So much time next to you…
But I never said thank you
Thanks for tucking me in each night
Thanks for cuddling and rubbing my feet
Thanks for making me smile and laugh
Thanks for teaching me to be kind
Thanks for chasing away monsters
Thanks for soothing my tummy aches
Nurturing my wounds, mending my pains
Thanks for driving me to school
Thanks for being at every cheer competition
Thanks for always being by my side
Thanks for teaching me to be strong
And to always love
Thanks for supporting me, no matter what
Thanks for making it so easy to talk to you
And for always being so honest with me
Thanks for always being there
Thanks for loving me unconditionally
Thanks for being my best friend
RESENTMENT: A FEELING OF BITTER INDIGNATION AT HAVING BEEN TREATED UNFAIRLY.
You let yourself get so high,
Giving yourself a greater distance to fall.
And you did.
You yanked us down with you,
When it came crashing down and caught flames.
Falling so fast, so hard.
I’ll never let myself get that far.
I’ll never get that far.
I’ll play it safe.
But I’m afraid.
What if I lose my way?
What if I break?
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